Well, it seems as though i was on the internet one night and something reminded me of this old webpage i used to have....something on expage perhaps??  Yes, i think so.  Anyway, i decided that all my DIE HARD fans needed me to do some updating.  I guess expage wasn't cutting it, so i decided to get a freeservers thing i heard about from a friend of mine.  Anywho, here you are, and check it out and tell all your friends.

10/14/04 well i think my guitar is screwed up or the tabs are screwed up.  i did drop d for this song and it just doesn't sound good.  so i had to drop it too Db and now it sounds better.  welp....guitar center is having a crazy sale extravaganza and i think i'm going there tomorrow to test out stuff.  i don't know what i want though.....ahhhh it should be fun though.  hopefully. ha.  i need an amp.  and one of those other things....yeah...

sometimes people....are hard to deal with....why do i even care....

"i struggle for the words and then give up....

...It's not as if I need the extra weight
Confused enough by life, so thanks a lot
Lonely written words for company
Just raise the roof this once and follow me..."

why do i care, i ask again?  good question....

then stop

song o' day:  snow patrol - chocolate

10/10/04 ooo wow i updated two days in a row.  i think i want a new page added to this site but i don't know what to do.  should i just do a miscellaneous page that has junk i find sporadically throughout the day?  like a certain something if you scroll down.  giggle.  ha.  um....i don't know.  tessa is the only one who reads this, so give me an idea for another page.  umm....anything else?  i listened to the swift today, which is also the name of the cd (today).  haha how crazy is that.  welp, i don't know what to say now.  so i think i'm going to stare off in a dream-like state until someone gets online or i decide to finish my work.  welp, later gater

song o' the day:  "hear with me" by mercy me

10/9/04 welp...what to say.  i have so much work to do but i'm stalling from doing it.  i'm a horrible person with no time management.  dangit.  i need a new word besides "dangit".  hmm, i'll work on that.  it's weird how one song can represent exactly what your feeling.  it's crazy how a songwriter writes something so personal yet so universal.  i want to watch see spot rock again, but i really need to get work done.  daaah.  curse you aqua scum.  i think i'm gonna listen to fm static.  i finally got my concert pictures in a photo album.  i have lotsa pictures.  i wish i would take more.  i saw a picture of my sister today that was really funny.  we need to hang out.  but alas, she's in boston.  soon enough... um...i can't wait to be a sanctus real roadie.  thanks for giving us the job chris.  you rock.

"so what's an electrical panel like you doing in a garage like this?"

song o' the day:  "when in doubt" by thousand foot krutch (i love trevor mcnevan)

10/3/04 ooo october.  exciting.  my dc talk cd is really scratched and it's making me angry.  i don't know how it got so scratched.  grrrr.  it was fine yesterday.  maybe my cd player is having an off day.  i hate it when my cds get scratched for no good reason.  welp...what to say.  i need to go read.  ohhhh if you skip again, i'm going to hurt you.................

>beat up cd<

i'm sad now.  i'm REALLY sad now.  let's see....stop skipping, please...see it's occupying my thoughts over other important matters. psh.  i actually  might think more about purchasing toby mac's "welcome to diverse city" when it comes out.  well, i mean, i'm going to make a bigger effort to hear his stuff.  yes....my fm static cd is scratched too and i just bought that.  grrr....i think that's from my car.  i think it scratches them all.  ohhh bahhh.  man.  i guess i should find something else to listen to if this is going to bother me so much.  welp...i'm tired.  i think i'm going to watch see spot rock in a little bit and then go to bed.  heehee

i finally decided on my favorite actors....

all the guys in see spot rock

giggle

song o' the day:  toby mac - gone

9/17/04

i have a really bad headache.

snow patrol is helping.

song o' the day:  "sunny days" by jars of clay

9/9/04 what shall i say.   how bout something profound and amazing?  nah, some other time.  um...what can i say that hasn't been said.  i had a muffin today.  they are right next to me.  they are costco muffins.  i achoo achoo had one this morning and it was good.  i don't know how i'm getting to tessa's house tomorrow.  by car you say? hey that's a good idea! haw haw haw funny....not.  so today i caught a butterfly.  i named it phillis.  it named me terrance.  i thought i owned it, and it thought it owned me.  it was a great relationship.  then phillis decided to get me a puppy so i wouldn't be lonely when it would go to work during the day.  i thought i would get phillis a puppy so IT wouldn't be lonely when I went to work during the day.  so we went and bought puppies, unbeknownst to each other, and when we came back home, we each had a puppy by our sides and you could imagine the embarrassment on both our parts.

song o' the day:  "something" by everyday sunday

8/28/04 i heard that brian pittman is no longer going to be in relient k.  apparently his last show is tomorrow.  that is LAME.  i refuse to believe it until relient k themselves say something to confirm it.  no one can replace brian.  i'm glad that steve left though, because there are no words to describe my love for dave.  anyway, i have a lot to do before tuesday and i don't want to do any of it.  but i need to.  dahh.  welp, i may go see napoleon dynamite again soon. haha what a weird movie.  i wish i could run 5000 meters well.  i wish that i could ride a unicycle juggling oatmeal cream pies as well.  maybe i will be able to one day.  i'm excited to help redecorate tessa's room.  that should be fly.  marty mcfly.  word.

song o' the day:  "wow" by snow patrol

8/25/04 hmmm what to say....today was kind of lame.  i think i'm going to watch the olympics.  i wasn't going to update this, but i'm going to to appease tessa. haha.  i'm so sore and have difficulty moving properly.  what a waste.  what a freakin waste of time it all turned out to be.  my chemical romance has a great cd....called...uh....something to do with....something. i don't remember. the word revenge is in it.  anyway, i wouldn't buy it though cuz at least one song is no good.  what are good things that are going to happen in the future....?

i'm going to get a wonderful guitar/amp, i have hopefully 4 wonderful concerts to go to this fall (rk better come!), i get to visit with me sis, and i can't think of any more.

sometimes it seems whenever i try to find positives, my brain likes to overload with counteracting negatives.  welp, i need to talk about something cooler than this.

um....i had a dream last night that i got to hang out with michael phelps.  i went to go swimming somewhere and he was there and we decided to spend the afternoon together.  gasp...but i had to cut it short because i was going to be late for tryouts!!! grrrrr once again, a positive thing has been torturously asphyxiated by the oncoming and persistant negative aspect.  haha britney spears was in my dream too.  i think i was helping michael with buying a present for his mom or something.  haha i don't know.  in my dream though, after saying i had to go, we were gonna makes plans to meet up later but i was awakened by the annoying and deathly agonizing sound of the alarm clock.  sorry michael phelps, maybe we'll hang out again soon. haha

i'm sorry that this entry was lame.  i'll type something better and hopefully happier some other time.

song o' the day:  "To the End" by My Chemical Romance (the lyrics are actually kinda weird....but meh)

8/20/04 okay, so i haven't updated in awhile.  meh.  i decided to stop updating cuz it was getting annoying, and it's not like anyone reads this anyway.  anywho,watching the olympics.  michael phelps won another gold! i love this man.  so awesome.  anywho, yeah, the "underdog" song seems to be the theme today... i think it's appropriate for the olympics and paul what's-his-last-name.  yeah he was 12th, but ended up getting the gold.  that was cool.  anyway, um, cds i want right now are fm static - what are you waiting for, and seven places - lonely for the last time.  those are on the top of my list as of now.  can't wait to see franz and sanctus in september.  i can't wait to be THAT close to my beloved steve, my beloved matt, and my beloved chris.  i haven't really grown that attached to mark actually.  i'm sorry mark, but we haven't reached that point.  i'm sure it will get there eventually.  anyway, i wish i were an olympic champion.  to be so fit and absolutely amazing as that.  that is as close to perfection as it comes.  the olympics.  and that's why i love them.

wow, i'm boring.

song o' the day:  "underdog" by audio a

2nd song o' the day:  "i love michael phelps" by me!

7/25/04 (11:53 pm) i seem to be having the experience of one of my persistant and almost vengeful moods that i appear to acquire in certain stages of time passing.  where it's like you're not in a bad mood...but not in a good mood....but you can't quite call it neutral.  here, let's play Label My Mood...... it has been decided that the aforesaid mood has been labeled "strongly desirous yet, not surprisingly, but sadly, consistantly disappointed". yeah that works.  i think that in my soon outgoings of travel by means of car and then foot, i shall possibly purchase the recorded musical album by the acoustic artist i have grown to admire and like - denison witmer.  i don't remember what it's called but it's something about a river or stream or some sort of body of water like that.  why do i keep typing crazy sentences and then go back to normal.  hmmm. i want some cereal...i hope i have a good kind.  well....what shall i say.  i had yogurt today.  it satisfied my hunger pangs, and therefore i approved of my eating of it.

song o' the day: "are you lonely" by denison witmer

7/22/04 (11:20 pm)  OHHHH MY!! how i love, no....heart, no.....ADORE falling up!! those guys are the nicest guys ever.  ohhh dear me, i can't believe how cool they were.  yes, i saw them in concert and i love them to death.  ohhh geez were they phenomenal.  i LOVE jessy!!  and i love joe too.... i got to talk to him for a little while.  man!! so much fun was had that i couldn't use up a thousand gazillion pages to express how much exciting greatness occurred that fine day of yesterday.  ohhhhhhh man.  sigh. GO SEE FALLING UP!!!  ohhh an this guy named logan martin was such a nice guy because he gave me a FREE copy of his cd.  haha, we decided he's a knight of the round table.  yes....ohhhhhh man!!! >goes off in dream-like state<

song o' the day:  logan martin - "gas station beauty"

7/14/04 (1:39 am) well, i saw "i love the 90's" years 90 and 91 yesterday.  that was nice.  i had volleyball tonight so i recorded the 92 and 93 on me dvr cool thing.  it's handy.  i recorded dashboard confessional on letterman, brad pitt on conan (but my dad erased it and was extremely angry), that "glen...glen glen glen" eye of the tiger commercial, and the franz ferdinand music vid as well as meant to live and dare you to move vids by switchfoot.  so i've been satisfied with this technological advance brought into my life.  anyway, that was really boooooooRING ("hello?") haha, matt did that in the tour journal...except he typed more than that...funny.  anyway, i have killer mosquito bites that itch like something that itches really badly.  man....ahhh...well, i played crazy vball today and my knee was A-OKAY! so don't panic.  my poor knee.  welp, no one ever gets online from 10 pm onward, so i'm left to doing this.  ha.  not that i don't mind it....anyway, i hope to hawk nelson's cd before the week is through....later gater

song o' the day (it's like mess o' potamia on "the daily show"):  "x-ray" by john reuben

song of the day: "sick cycle carousel" by lifehouse

7/5/04 ha the fourth was fun!  yeah i hung out with tessa and her family and her family's friends and i don't know if i was just a loser they all thought was annoying (very likely) but i still had fun.  vball was a cool time though i kept running into some guy (i had no idea who anyone was except for her immediate family).  so thanks tessa for a cool time! i get to go to seattle tomorrow and hopefully use crazy fast internet!!! woohoo!! well, i love Andrew Dan Jumbo (carpenter on While You Were Out) because he's just awesome.  welp, hope you guys had a cool fourth too...

eek!

song o' the day:  dashboard confessional - "vindicated"

7/4/04 it's after midnight so i guess it is the fourth.  happy day of the independence! whoohoo! i heart america!  i really want a sandwich.  and i really want to watch dashboard confessional on dave letterman...hmmm i better get to those things.  isn't my site lovely?  haha right...it makes me mad that freeservers doesn't give you many options.  all i wanted was a black background and this was the only layout that had one.  makes me sad.  i wanted black so that the different font colors could turn up cooler...i may change it later...i don't know...i don't really care.  well today was better than recent days. i finished a song yesterday and played "pennies." that was chill yo! hahahahah chill. i think that people should start using the word "jive" again.  i recently attempted to bring it back in a previous entry and i'm hoping this will get the wheel turning some more.  word up peace out and such other early nineties vanilla ice phrases....

grrr sigh...i almost saw a ray of sunshine but it was ripped away from me like a Christmas ham from a starving man....

okay that was weird

hmmm

song o' the day:  "higher" by johnny reu

7/1/04 hey it's july first! yes, considering it is 1:40 am.  well...let's see i had a crappy day yesterday and today but my friend has been helping me to feel a lot better.  i'm very very sore from volleyball and then running and i'm having a hard time with someone i know.  welp, that's enough of that.  umm...i'm glad i get to play volleyball after such a long time because i love the sport though i'm out of shape! ha...well i got up the falling up lyrics which is cool because falling up rules.  their music is like a garden and i dig it.  hahahahahahahahahhahahahahah that was lame.  anyway, here's to long lost seventies phrases.

don't give me that jive, turkey

song o' the day: the entire "much afraid" cd by jars of clay

6/26/04 heard relient k on cmradio.net while they played live at creation east! woo!  i love them so much, they rock the fox.  welp, listening to red light ambition right now.  check them out at rlamusic.com or purevolume.com/redlightambition.  this is a really good cd.  if they got signed to some label and actually put out an official cd, i would buy it in a heartbeat.  my friend knows the band so i got a free ep and sticker!! ha yeah that rocks.  but seriously, good music.  i wrote a song today.  just instrumental, though, the words are in progress.  that was nice...who knows what will become of it.  hopefully i write some more tomorrow.  i envy jon foreman - he likes to write a new song every day.  sigh.  someday!! woop woop! 

hey i got switchfoot's "the beautiful letdown" again but this time it had a bonus dvd and sticker.  now all i need is switchfootage...

song o' the day:  switchfoot - "when monday comes around" (cool unreleased song that was on the dvd)

6/24/04 i guess it is really the 24th cuz it's 12:30 am.  nice.  well i guess later...today...i'll be listening to sanctus and switchfoot perform at creation east!! that will be fun!! woo hoo.  yes....i did mucho amounts of cleaning and i've been sneezing like maniac.  and yes, like my site name, sneezes are painful.   ha.  you know, it seems that whenever i'm able to cross a band off on my gigantic list of bands i need to check out, there are 3 more i need to add to it.  i'm not complaining but it's crazy because i don't know how to go and listen to all of them!! i will soon enough.  listened all the way through all-american rejects, audio adrenaline, ace troubleshooter, and sanctus real today.  that was nice.  it was consecutively. that was also nice.  i wanted a sandwich but i don't have any bread. hey i finally bought waterbottles!! there's been a shortage ever since that one entry saying i needed to buy some which was long ago...well, it's hard to brush my teeth and type at the same time, so i'm going to head out.

seacreeesst out!

song of the day:  incubus - "drive" (yeah, sure, it's been awhile and this song was feeling left out...ha)

6/9/04 so much love i have...for two boys...i love them with my life...and neither of them know it.  ahhh today, i finally understood this shirt this one kid used to wear in like 5th grade.  weird how you learn these things years and years later.  like that one joey fatone joke.  interesting.  ahhhh...dear me...tengo mucho amor y estoy muy alegre! jaja....rock onward...

song o' the day:  "good feeling" by travis (goood band)

6/7/04 ahhhh! sometimes i kick myself for not taking chances... last night i could have talked to the love of my life because he was talking to my want-to-be-friend i've mentioned before.  i think he kinda likes me now.  i'm feeling better than before, which is nice.  just a quick note here, nothing phenomenal.  word.

song of the day:  Idle Hours - "Tonight"

6/6/04 i really like to stall from getting actual work done...ha...welp, last monday i bought switchfoot's "live in san diego" dvd and i must say that it's absolutely AMAZING!  it reminds me of the concert i went to back in march but it makes me sad because the dvd concert eventually came to an end and there was no more... i also bought "crashings" by falling up (goooood cd) and with that, i got a free "simply great music" cd, which actually has good stuff on it! there are like 2 songs by some girls that i don't like really at all though, but the rest is good.  it has sanctus real's "everything about you" from their upcoming cd which is my favorite song at the moment. AND it has "the one" by everyday sunday which has a guest appearance background vocalness by matt thiessen which was rather enjoyable.  still feeling somewhat like a loser like in the last entry...but "these are the things that we got through!" (ha, song by Hawk Nelson)...but anyway, sooner or later (oh, that's a song by switchfoot and the name of cd by bbmak...why do i keep doing this?) i'll either stop caring or we'll be buds again....i'm hoping for the latter...i heard a vanilla ice song on the radio yesterday

i've got a plan to lose it all

song of the day:  Matthew West - "Happy"

2nd song o' the day:  Switchfoot - "The Loser"

5/31/04 welp, feeling a little like aaron beck's idea of overgeneralization today.  yeah, think about that.  if you find out what that means, good for you.  feelings have come within the past 20 minutes that make me feel very inferior and lame.  i live a lame life.  ah here i go with needing some cognitive therapy.  but it's hard to steer clear of beck's ideas.  welp, that beck is a smart guy.  i feel like a loser...(ha...a song by Beck...ah the irony) tongue-in-cheek.  ha i had a good thought.  i'm sure none of this made sense in any way.  but it's late.  and i'm trying to make a friend.  but my want-to-be friend doesn't find me very interesting.  which makes me feel all dumb.  ha i had a funny experience with the word "dumb" today.  welp, i didn't finish my work that i needed to get done today.  hopefully it won't come back and bite me in the ear tomorrow. ha.

song of the day: that loser song by beck

2nd song of the day: "The Loser" by Switchfoot (ah, jon, always there to make me feel better)

5/30/04 (check the "what's new" page for some junk)  i like jars of clay...even though i've only heard like two songs by them.  well, now that "sinking" is done playing, i'm going to listen to the presidents of the united states of america right now.  the song is called "tube amplifier" but they may have spelled it "toob"...anyway... hmm i think a friend of mine doesn't like me any more...he may not have ever liked me in the first place...meh...maybe he does, maybe he doesn't...who knows...ahh puffy shoes...welp, what's new today.  i saw some soccer but the refs were carppy though which made me angry so my team lost... there was a lot of cheapness going on in the game.  i need to buy more water bottles.  i want play my guitar on a street corner.  maybe then i'd make a buck or two.  to buy water bottles.

and here you didn't think those two thoughts would be connected

i've thwarted you

song of the day:  s-man and g-funk (simon and garfunkle) - "sound of silence"

5/27/04 well...what can i talk about...i should go to bed but i don't want to...but i don't want to do anything else...haha...i'm a lazy bum...what's new with me you ask?  well, i have a lot of things to work on this weekend and hopefully i'll have time to just play me guitar...that will be nice... i hope to venture out and buy some cds too... there are three that i definitely want right now (and by "three" i mean about 15)...others i still need to hear more songs...i wish i had a record player so i could listen to my records.  yes, a record player would be a handy apparatus at the moment.

you kids with those one shirts...me too...

i like switchfoot...

...and relient k

song of the day:  Dashboard Confessional - "Age Six Racer"

5/16/04 hey guess what??  i finally bought switchfoot's "learning to breathe"! whooohooooo!! i love this cd!! i now have all 4 switch albums!  i got the lyrics for sanctus real up today...so go check them out and be happy...well i listened to some old relient k stuff today which was cool....i enjoy them mucho.  it's late and i need to get some more work done before i sleep tonight.  i think i wrote i song....but i'm not sure...

song of the day:  Switchfoot - "Innocence Again"

2nd song of the day:  Miscellaneous - "It All Adds Up to Four"

5/2/04 ahh not feeling well today. well what're ya gonna do...still on my switchfoot craze and i like it!! hung with good friends this weekend and saw a movie and made smores late at night.  i was feeling somewhat sick but oh well.  i hope i didn't give them any of my sickness....well, for those of you who care (and i know all of you do), i was told from a very inside source that relient k is going to probably have a new record come out by the end of this year.  they're going to start recording real soon.  that makes me mucho happy!!!  relient k is one awesome band!  i want some captain crunch and maybe some apple juice (not necessarily in that order or together).

life is pain, princess.  anyone who says differently is selling something.

song of the day:  Switchfoot - "Only Hope" because toni wrote the lyrics on her page and said to think about it and it's true, if you really listen to it and read the words to this song, it hits you deeply

4/24/04 well...i found that i have a list of 31 bands i need to check out.  ahh so many bands, so little time.  ha but i didn't do anything today.  it was a badly needed nothing day.  it was good weather and i was outside most of it.  i think i have an idea for a song so i think i'll work on it a little later.  i finally got the supertones lyrics good and plenty (ew gross candy) and so i think i'll go put them on the foe toes thingy.  i love switchfoot and jon foreman.  ah if you guys ever ever ever get the remote chance to see them perform, take the opportunity!! they are sooo amazing in concert and put on such an amazing show.  AMAZING I SAY!  i saw them exactly one month ago and i'm still in awe.  well...i guess i just wanted to say that and that God is awesome!! He is a cool guy and i enjoy His sense of humor.

song of the day:  Switchfoot - "Don't Be There"

4/18/04 ahhh writing papers is no fun!! it's hard to write something really interesting that is enjoyable to read when you really don't care about the paper.  well i don't mind the topic...it's just the requirements i have to include.  i'm hungry.  i'll venture to get food in a sec... well this weekend i saw a movie with some good friends of mine and went to wal-mart! wooo! ha...what a fun store... we heard these lame guys with tank tops and jerseys all talking homie g wassup and they decided to leave and were like "c'mon, let's bounce" and we were weirded out.  but then when we were leaving we saw them walk by again and i was like "hey wait, i thought they bounced..." and that caused some laughter.  i hope they didn't hear me.  no actually i do.

song of the day:  Switchfoot - "Bomb" (i'm on a switchfooty-type craze!)